I've been very nostalgic lately, I don't know if it's because my birthday is coming up or with over half a year behind us already that I feel time is racing by with ferocious speed.
I usually find myself feeling like this when I think I don't have enough time. Time is hard to come by these days and because unless I really push myself to stay mindful and on task the day feels like it has gone by in one big blur. With my youngest now at kindy I can get a bit achieved during the day, going for a run, editing, writing or the dreaded supermarket run. I even find time somedays for a civilised cup of tea - a little mental reprieve.
I have always been an avid list maker. I love to feel productive and be able to tick things off one by one during the day. I wrote a to do list the other night but it was so long and over-whelming I screwed it up and threw it in the bin. I'm not sure if that was sensible or stupid but at the time if felt like the right thing to do.
So here I am with what feels like a million things to do and all I really want to do is none of them. What I really want to do is spend time with my littles these holidays. Nothing fancy, maybe some crafts, some baking or a board game by the fire.
During term time each day is mapped out. Everyone knows what they are supposed to be doing. The scenario of school holidays goes against my entire being. I love a good plan, control and lots of organisation. The school holidays bring with it the need for a more go-with-the-flow attitude and small pockets of free time are few and far between.
But for now it's back to the chaos of cooking dinner, endless entertaining, bath times and telling everyone to stop fighting 37 times a day (actually 37 is a gross under-exaggeration).
My aim these holidays has been to be present, to do one task at a time and no overwhelming lists (and also to palm a couple off at a time to the grandparents!)
Hopefully this will equal a content winter school break for everyone. Hope all you parents are having an enjoyable school holidays too.